Monday, February 09, 2009

Are you Iron or not?

You know I love endurance sports, and I totally dig the self-satisfaction they bring to my life - the endorphin rush, the confidence they've given me, and the much needed challenge they present to me. While I do love them, and I consider myself an endurance junkie for life, I have something to confess:

I have been USING them.

Focusing on my next race or my next seemingly unattainable goal in triathlon has been my diversion technique. It's been a smoke screen. It's been a substitute to keep me satisfied with a career that falls well beneath what I could and should be doing. Not to mention what I'd like to be doing. And let me just tell ya, you really can only swim, bike and run so many miles in a week. Or a month. Or a year. You can even smash your "if everything goes perfect" goal, and live on the SuperMegaExtraStrength Ironman endorphins for quite a while. But sooner or later, the cloud will lower you back down to Earth. The smoke will start to clear, and you'll still have what you always had, except you get to wear M-dot stuff everywhere you go.

The good news? When you have this dream goal that you see no way in hell of ever reaching, and then you start taking steps in its direction, and you eventually take the plunge and announce that you're going for it, and then you reach it, and you far surpass your goals in reaching it; you realize that with hard work, persistence, and dedication, you can do so much more than you ever dreamed possible. You realize how badly you used to limit yourself when you said, "I could never do an Ironman," or, "I could never do an IM in less than twelve and a half hours." You realize that while the path looks daunting, it is extremely doable if you'll just dig down and do what it takes.

The bad news? You have to face the facts that you've been living a life limited, in so many other areas, by that "I could never do an Ironman" thinking. Facing the facts means having to step outside your comfort zone. Risking ridicule and/or embarrassment. Even failure. It's frightening.

I've got to stop just living vicariously through IronLana. IronLana needs to take over in all the other areas of my life. My parenting, my career, my relationships, my commitments, etc. I know, deep down, that IronLana is the REAL Lana. To hell with the circumstances, the excuses, the surroundings, and the conditioned behavior...IronLana is Lana. Everyday, every hour, in all that I do.

13 comments:

Tonya said...

Lana I love reading your blog... I will def let you know if I need anything. Thanks for offering!!
Tonya

Anonymous said...

Holy smokes Lana, you are really hardcore! Never looked at your blog before, got a huge lump in my throat. Not only are you a great athlete, but a great writer as well. Really enjoyed reading this.

SCOTT SUMMIT said...

Very inspirational post Lana. I wouldn't want to cross IronLana in the board room.

-Scott Summit
DBNR

D10 said...

I know how you feel with work. I have a plan to do something better "work wise" and move forward. But, it takes time, planning and moving out of a comfort zone.

Missy said...

It's not what we do, it's just who we are and who we've become! Cheers.

Trey said...

Do you have a book out as well?

LKA said...

Hey, Lana. Really great post. I know exactly what you mean about the bad news being that you've realized your entire life has been limited. The truth so hurts.

Have a great day!

Jessica said...

ok then....what's your first step? I know you have it in you!

Iron Girl Nyhus said...

You just made my day.

Eric said...

I've thought this same exact thing too. Somehow I can get make time to workout but can't seem to make time to pursue other goals.

momo said...

yep, yep, yep, yep, yep and can i get an amen?

ironman is one of many things that we you DO lana, not who we are. i had to learn the same lesson. and just for the record, who you are is pretty darn great in my book.

hugs!

Phil said...

Lana ... you are still the strongest woman I know .. if you were to apply the same focus, drive and dedication to other important areas of your life, you'd take over the planet

IronJenny said...

Great post Lana!