Friday, January 30, 2009

Time for Life

To the Creator of the Universe, the Maker of my Soul, My Protector, My Guide, and My Friend:

Please grant me time here on this Earth. I need to know that I have time. Your creation and your gift of life are amazing. I love them, and I want to experience them all. I am so thankful to be here, right here, in this moment, but my greatest fear is that my time here will end before I can fully experience all the gifts You have to offer. If it so, please tell me…

That I do not have to do everything on my bucket list this year.

That I do not have to become who I eventually want to be right this minute.

That I have time to fulfill my promises to my children.

That I have time to settle, for the time being, for a career that is not really what I had planned on, because it provides the schedule and income my family needs.

That I have time to learn about all those subjects I am curious about.

That I have time to read all those books.

That I have time to become a better mountain biker, someday.

That I have time to hike the 2,000 mile Appalachian Trail all at one time, when the time is right.

That I have time to do it in shorter sections before I do the whole thing.

That I have time to go to law school.

That I have time to change my mind if I don’t want to be an attorney.

That I have time to write a book, become a journalist, or take whatever door opens for me that I like.

That I have time to try and fail, and time to try again.

That I have time to build my own legacy.

That I have time to learn and experience who You really are; time to learn and time to understand what my purpose truly is here in your world.

That I have time to fulfill that purpose.

I want it all...I admit it, I want all You have to offer.

I have been living with a panic-stricken sense of urgency that I have to be everything I need to be and do everything I want to do today.

Your universe is vast and your gifts are boundless. I can’t do it all in one day…or one year. Please, give me time.


The Tri Runner said...

Wow, that is very touching. I’m sure He will give you all the time you need.

Freedom Runner said...

Thank you for this. I was about to be enveloped--again--by that sense of panic. I'm glad to know it's not just me! :o)

I will ask for time on behalf of all of us. Maybe there's some collective bargaining power we can harness?

Borsch said...

Perfectly said!

Missy said...

Shiiiiit, we gots all kinds of time, gurl! I need to reinvent myself too...just not the right time. If HE thinks WE are meant to IT, we will. p.s. sent you an email today too!

Iron Mountaineer said...

Hey, I found your blog on another blog from another blog. :) Really great blog you've got here and a very touching entry.

My Life & Running said...

Beautiful Lana.

Papa Louie said...

And as Steve from Pidip says, "life is short but it should be long enough to enjoy and experience the joys of life. Great post.

TJ said...

Very eloquently said. May His mercies and blessings find us all this year.

Kona Shelley said...


Brad Braden said...

I always wonder when I will finally be the person I want to be..